A Thought

Since I met him, as I have already said, I have some very strong feelings for him. I hate feeling like this but I can't shake it off. The sad thing is I know he doesn't feel the same way. I also know that this is going to be the guy that really hurts me. But I'm still going to take a chance despite it all. I'm just going to have to be careful and have an open mind. Just go with the flow right now and if later certain things do not change and they truly are an issue for me then I will have to talk about it with him and probably separate myself from him. The other sad thing is that there is another guy who really is great and have a lot in common as well. He is someone who would do all the things this one won't. He has strong feelings for me. And I really wish I had them for him as well. But right now my heart is yearning for the one who will tear it into pieces. I must accept this fate tho, I have hurt many guys who have not deserved it only for revenge against Adam. And just like Erick must pay the price with karma, I will have to do the same. The time for me to pay has come and I need to be prepared for it because I fear it will be very painful for me